Oh Look, Krill!

Oh don't worry. Whales don't eat clownfish, they eat krill.

2011 In Retrospect

2011 was a year of change and procrastination. Change is the only constant, isn’t it?

Big changes happened at work that left everyone reeling from shock and surprise but in the end, we sucked it up and dealt with the new situation and tried to make the best of it. one by one, the friends I made at work left for better pastures, leaving me alone, in an office full of people I can barely connect with. So I started spending more time by myself and discovered that I enjoy it very much, giving me time to rest and I get to do things that I enjoy.

I’ve been procrastinating on my school project. I didn’t have any classes to attend so all I needed to do was start my experiments and do it. However, I didn’t realise how difficult it was to try to juggle a full time job and experiments at a school that’s so far from civilisation that it feels like you’re cut off from everything else when you’re there.

Every time I start the project, the mussels end up dying. It was very frustrating to be stalled even before you start anything. In the end, I had to make a decision that could change a lot of my long term plans. At least now I don’t have panic attacks or heart palpitations every time I think about the project anymore.

I haven’t been able to spend as much time as I’d like with my friends but when I do, it’s always fun. I met a number of new people and experienced a lot of new things. I’ve been spending time with Dude and that’s always fun and interesting.

However, I’ve hit a dry spell when it comes to writing. I have no motivation what so ever to even write anything. It makes me feel a little lost. I barely did anything for NaNoWriMo either since I was very caught up with my work and school.

Over all, the year was not bad but I wish it could have been better.

This year, I’m hoping for greater things, better things, more love, more peace and joy and most importantly, I’m hoping to still have a job.

2010 In Retrospect

I was contemplating on whether I should even do a summary of my life in 2010 but since I did it for the last few years (here, here and here), I might as well keep to tradition and just do it.

2010 was an interesting year, filled with events, meeting new people, self-discovery and thanks.

In 2010, I discovered that just because you’re afraid to do something, it doesn’t mean that it should stop you from doing it. My weekend adventures with the Adventure Crew helped me with deal with my fear of heights and the slight vertigo that I have. Adventures can be found here and here. All the climbing, getting lost and various physical things that we end up doing during our adventures made me realise that there are so many things to do in Singapore and how sorely out of shape I am.

The Happy Smiley Writers Group, of which I am a member, had published our first full-length novel, Bubble G.U.M.. It’s been a long time coming and I’m proud to have been part of this project. It was a very good and interesting experience and has taught me a lot on how to work with other writers and the rough editing process that comes with making our contributions into a smooth, single story.

School schedule was hectic for me in 2010. The first semester of the year was not too bad, with the classes only being twice a week, with normal workload and exams to study for. The second semester was totally different. While I had no exams to study for but the schedule for the classes were sometimes so packed, coupled with essays due every fortnight, I was frazzled and more than a little stressed out to juggle school and my work life.

Work kept me on my toes and even though it kept me busy enough that I barely had time to catch up on my readings for school, I actually enjoyed the work. It made me realise that I’m good at what I do and my technical lab schools are hot. I realised that while I may not enjoy working on human related research, I enjoy being in the lab.

On the personal front, I discovered that getting your heart broken isn’t the end of the world and when you bounce back, you’re stronger for it. Love may have been lost but the love found is better. I’m very thankful that I had a circle of close and awesome friends that I could turn to when I needed to lick my wounds and recover. They have been wonderfully supportive and I’m so, so thankful to have them in my life.

So 2010 wasn’t so bad. I’m hoping that the coming year will be better for all my loved ones and I.

2009 In Retrospect

2009 was a year of balance. The good stuff balanced out the bad stuff. The awesomely good stuff balanced out the murderous rage that I felt.The sad parts balanced out the superbly happy things.

On the professional side of my life, things haven't been all that great. I tried to do something new but in the end, I realised that it wasn't what I as doing but the people around me that were making me unhappy with my situation. I couldn't do anything about that and so, I just muddle through it.

On the personal side of life, things were mostly awesome. I got to spend some time with The Significant Other on his birthday. I got a story published in an anthology. I started school again and while it was a rough first few months but I managed it. It's been a whole year of school and I must say, I didn't do too badly. I"m actually looking forward to the new school year.

Not all was fine and dandy. My maternal grandmother is still bed bound and unable to speak. My paternal grandmother passed away on Boxing Day. There was much family drama on both sides of the family. There's nothing worse than family drama that drags everyone into the fray, even if they have nothing to do with the matter at hand.

I hope that 2010 would bring better things for me and my loved ones. I hope for a better work life/job experience. I hope to do better in school. I hope for more love and peace in the family. I just want for better things for everyone.

2008 In Retrospect

2008 was a year of change for me. I’m not against change, it’s just that I have a hard time adapting even if the change is on my terms. I will ultimately adapt but that doesn’t mean I won’t be kicking and screaming all the way.

The first half of the year was good. Everything went as it should. Even better than the last even.

My mother was given a clean bill of health by her doctor and she returned to work after a whole year of chemo treatments. I was glad that she was healthy again and I thought that life could go back to normal.

It was the second half of the year when the change started piling on top of each other, faster than I could get used to.

My sister left for her university education. It was not a bad change actually. Life at home was more peaceful. There weren’t any fights because the lights were turned on when I’m asleep, or fights about the tv, the DVD in the player or even over snacks.

Then my boss dropped the bomb that he was leaving. I worried about my job security. I worried about the projects. Basically everything work related was about to change with that one simple statement. After he left, I felt like I was in limbo and I know that I wasn’t the only one feeling that.

The change was slow but over the past few weeks, it had picked up pace and I think the change is now complete. We’ve integrated into another group and working with people we’ve worked with before. Hopefully this change will be a good one.

In the last quarter of the year, my grandmother suffered a stroke and that changed a lot of things in the house. There’s so much I could say about the change but I’m just going to leave it at that.

The only good thing that came in the final quarter was the fact that I got into grad school. It took me five years to get my act together and sent in my application. I’m both excited but at the same time scared at the prospect of going back to school. I’ll be juggling both work and school at the same time and I don’t know if I’m going to be able to compartmentalise as well as I should.

I think I’ve had enough change for a long while. I’m hoping that this coming year will be a good one for me and mine. I hope yours is too.

Until the next year…

Technorati Tags:

1 Comment

2007: My Life In Retrospect

It’s the last day of the year but it feels like we were only celebrating the New Years just last week. How time flies?

It’s been a bumpy year with lots of ups and downs. Mostly downs but the ups were good enough to overshadow the downs when I needed them. Lets take a recap.

Late last year, we found out that my mum had breast cancer and she went through a mastectomy in early January this year. It was hard to see my mum, whom I’d thought was the strongest woman I know, to be bedridden and hobble almost everywhere. The chemotherapy was hard on her and to see the effects of it was hard on the rest of us. She lost weight, her hair and even her sense of taste, making it hard for her to regain the weight that she lost during treatment.

Well meaning relatives made it harder by giving unsolicited assvice, as if they knew exactly what we as a family were going through. It was a long, long journey and as of her last chemo session and scan, she’s as healthy as can be and I hope that she would be so for a very, very long time.

The unexpected death of a classmate that made me realise how short this life is, but the weddings I attended and the births of two wonderful boys also made me realise that life is not all about sadness and pain. It’s also about joy, happiness and hope.

This year also saw me purchasing my second computer in my adult life, my first Mac. I love using a Mac. When I was buying the Mac, they told me that once you change to a Mac, you’ll never go back; and their right! I look at all the other PCs and I don’t feel like I could ever go back to that system.

The best parts of the year were the significant other’s return for Eid, both of them. I hate the long distance but what can I do? So instead, I make sure that all the time that we spent/will spend together count.

I’ve decided not to make any resolutions early in the year but to instead, adapt to what ever the world throws at me and learn from my mistakes. I hope that 2008 would be a better year for me, be it in my personal life or professionally. I hope for lots of happiness, love, joy and much, much good luck for every one.

May the year be a good one for everyone.

Until next year….

Technorati Tags: