I want to bring up these points to the family but they're just going to shrug it aside and say, she'll be better tomorrow. What if she isn't? You're not the one who saw her fall. You're not the one who saw her lose consciousness the first time. You're not even here every fucking day to see her getting frailer and frailer. Just because I'm ONLY her GRANDDAUGHTER, doesn't mean that I don't have any say or what ever in this issue.
I want them to do something. Anything at all. Something is better than the wait and see thing.
Work is the only thing that I can control but when reagents finish and no one tells me until I actually want to use it, or things are not put back to where they're supposed to be, this frustrates me even more, adding to that feeling of not being in control. It makes me grumpy, irritable and it makes me want to bite people. Hard. And hopefully draw some blood and a chunk of flesh.
I need to at least feel like I'm in control. It stresses me out and screws up my whole body/immune system. I just want things to go back to at least some semblance of order or normalcy. Is that too much to ask?